I haven't been keeping up with my blog as I have been trying my hand with facebook. I wasn't going to get involved with it as I feel that keeping up my blog keeps me busy. I joined it mostly to see what our grandson is up to. I really need to get back to doing genealogy, maybe after Christmas.
My sister in law e-mailed me with some bad news a couple of days ago. She had been in remission with stage four lung cancer for several months and then she noticed a swollen lymph gland and had it checked out. Sure enough the cancer is active again. I was hoping that she would be in remission a lot longer and that maybe even a miracle had happened. She has started treatments again, and had a bad reaction. It sure makes me think of just how fragile our lives our. We never know from day to day what is in store for us.
Life isn't what I thought it would be. For instance I thought when I married my first husband we would grow old together but at age 28 he was killed in a bank robbery along with his two women tellers. I was only 26 left with three very small children.
I always wanted a family that was close, and that was due to living with a very dysfunctional family. Mom and Dad were alcoholics and my Dad was a very abusive person both physically and mentally to his family especially to my Mother. We were always glad to see him go to work as he would be gone for a few days at a time. He was an Engineer on the Union Pacific Railroad. As soon as he came in the door, I would head for my room and try to stay as far away as possible from him.
I thought when I got married that I would have a happy close family and I remember daydreaming about being married and most of all being happy. I think that when we are young we all have a story book image of how our lives will be. My life took so many twist and turns and it was never what I thought it would be. However I am happily married to the love of my life and he does make me very happy, but getting to this point wasn't easy. Well, I can feel my mind starting to feel fuzzy, it's time to take my medicine. There is so much more on my mind lately, but to lengthy to go into.